The Calgary Flames just signed Bertuzzi to a 1 year 1.95mil contract. Which, I think is decent. Not too expensive and if he doesn't get too injured, he can still put up the points and adds secondary scoring. Which is what we need. And for those that I told that Vandermeer got 2.3 mil a year. They've changed it now and it looks to be only 1.6 mil, which is much better for someone like Vandermeer!!
Cammalleri (3.1) - Langkow (4.5) - Iginla (7.0) (speed/skill - defensive/grit - power/skill)
Glencross (1.3) - Lombardi (1.8) - Bertuzzi (2.0) (speed/grit - defensive/speed - power/skill)
Top 2 lines are very similar in nature. One power forward on the one side. One defensive centerman (one with good hands and does well in traffic areas like the front of the net / one speedster). And one speed forward on the other side capable of opening up space or pulling the trigger. You can even switch up Cammalleri and Bertuzzi every so often to create a power line (Bertuzzi - Langkow - Iginla) who can power their way through. And one speed line (Cammalleri - Lombardi - Glencross) who can use their speed to get them through.
Nystrom - Conroy - Moss
Bourque - Primeau - Boyd/Prust
Not bad in terms of depth forwards here. Conroy and Primeau add the veteran influence and are both skilled enough to shut down opposing forwards. Nystrom proved that he can be a younger/faster Yelle. Moss and Boyd add some offensive capabilities to the mix while being dependable defensively as well. Bourque sounds similar to a Moss type player as well. And Prust would be your agitator/enforcer for those games where he would be required.
Regehr - Sarich
Will be your shut-down defensive pairing just like last season. Both play a similar style of game and found chemistry near the end of last season. Both will hit hard and play smart defensively. Don't expect much offensive contribution.
Phaneuf - Vandermeer/Aucoin
Phaneuf does everything and depending on what you need paired up with him. Aucoin... to complement Phaneuf with another powerful shot from the other point on the PP (though I don't think Aucoin should play that many minutes in a game). Vandermeer... to add some stability to Phaneufs play and to protect Phaneuf from agitators trying to get Phaneuf off his game.
Giordano - Vandermeer/Aucoin
The 3rd defensive pairing. Average offense. Average defense. Makes for a good 5th/6th defensive pairing.
Pardy
Gain some experience for the youngster to replace Aucoin as a steady shut-down defenseman after Aucoin's contract expires next season.
Kiprusoff
McElhinney
Kiprusoff didn't play any better with competition from a veteran back-up. So, might as well give our youngers a shot and McElhinney held his own with a 2.00gaa in the games he played last year. Decent numbers for a rookie.
Monday, July 07, 2008
Sunday, July 06, 2008
Holiday Prequel
So, my mom sent me out to Vancouver to get my car fixed by my uncle (whose a mechanic). Don't know if it's cheaper that way. But that's what I was told to do, so I did it. At first, I was really scared about driving on my own for the 10+ hours required both ways, but it wasn't bad. It was great having my iPod and the FM transmitter cause the variety made listening to music and driving a lot more enjoyable. Drank Aloe drinks there and back and ate beef jerky as well. Don't think I'll make driving my day job though cause my bad hurt a LOT after each drive. But overall, not bad. And now I know I can drive to Vancouver and back without any problems. Maybe a driving companion to talk to would make it a little bit better though (someone I enjoy talking to for long spans of time). Though, I think the biggest problem there is finding someone willing to talk with me for that long of a time. =)
Anyways, I ended up heading out to Kelowna after dropping off my car and spent 4 days on the lake. It was awesome. Did some tubing and even tried some knee-boarding (next time, maybe I'll try to step up to the wakeboard or the water ski's!). Got burnt because I clearly didn't put enough sunblock on!! But it was still a great time just having fun and relaxing out on the lake! One of those times where it makes me wish I had a girlfriend to share that time with. Sigh...
And then Canada day came along and I REALLY wished I had a girlfriend to share that day with... we took the boat out at night to watch the fireworks! It was sweet... we had no idea where the fireworks were going to be set off, so we were just floating around Kelowna and then the fireworks ended up being set off within 800 meters of where we were (I think we ended up floating about 500 meters away from the fireworks barge by the end of it)!! Closest I've ever been to a firework display! It was great! But having a girl there to enjoy it with would have made it so much more memorable. Sigh... Kinda wish I brought a camera too...
But... as it stands. It was still a great little holiday.
And now... I have a couple days to get things done around the home. Check up on school stuff quickly. And then it's off for the big vacation with the family over in Europe!
Anyways, I ended up heading out to Kelowna after dropping off my car and spent 4 days on the lake. It was awesome. Did some tubing and even tried some knee-boarding (next time, maybe I'll try to step up to the wakeboard or the water ski's!). Got burnt because I clearly didn't put enough sunblock on!! But it was still a great time just having fun and relaxing out on the lake! One of those times where it makes me wish I had a girlfriend to share that time with. Sigh...
And then Canada day came along and I REALLY wished I had a girlfriend to share that day with... we took the boat out at night to watch the fireworks! It was sweet... we had no idea where the fireworks were going to be set off, so we were just floating around Kelowna and then the fireworks ended up being set off within 800 meters of where we were (I think we ended up floating about 500 meters away from the fireworks barge by the end of it)!! Closest I've ever been to a firework display! It was great! But having a girl there to enjoy it with would have made it so much more memorable. Sigh... Kinda wish I brought a camera too...
But... as it stands. It was still a great little holiday.
And now... I have a couple days to get things done around the home. Check up on school stuff quickly. And then it's off for the big vacation with the family over in Europe!
Thursday, July 03, 2008
Updated Flames List
Cammalleri - Langkow - Iginla
Glencross - Lombardi - Moss
Nystrom - Conroy - Bourque
Greentree/Prust - Primeau - Boyd
Regehr - Sarich
Phaneuf - Vandermeer
Aucoin - Giordanno
Pardy
Kipprusoff
McElhinney
Goaltending: I like it. IF Kipper shows up to play consistently this year. McElhinney should be a good backup. If not Keetley might be good as well.
Defensively: I like it. A bit to expensive for what we've got though. Aucoin (4mil) and Sarich (3.5mil) isn't quite worth it. But Vandermeer and Gioradanno back on should make it a balanced defense at least.
Offensively: Glencross is good... but I'm not sure he's set for a 2nd liner though. But then again, I think we could do better than Moss on the 2nd line as well. So, I'm still hoping for some better 2nd line wingers to play with Lombardi. And I don't know anything about Greentree.
Glencross - Lombardi - Moss
Nystrom - Conroy - Bourque
Greentree/Prust - Primeau - Boyd
Regehr - Sarich
Phaneuf - Vandermeer
Aucoin - Giordanno
Pardy
Kipprusoff
McElhinney
Goaltending: I like it. IF Kipper shows up to play consistently this year. McElhinney should be a good backup. If not Keetley might be good as well.
Defensively: I like it. A bit to expensive for what we've got though. Aucoin (4mil) and Sarich (3.5mil) isn't quite worth it. But Vandermeer and Gioradanno back on should make it a balanced defense at least.
Offensively: Glencross is good... but I'm not sure he's set for a 2nd liner though. But then again, I think we could do better than Moss on the 2nd line as well. So, I'm still hoping for some better 2nd line wingers to play with Lombardi. And I don't know anything about Greentree.
Friday, June 27, 2008
Looking for 2 top-6 forwards!
Cammallerri - Langkow - Iginla
??????????? - Lombardi - ?????
Nystrom - Conroy - Moss
Prust - Primeau - Boyd
Van Der Gulik
Phaneuf -
Regehr - Sarich
Aucoin -
Kipprusoff
McElhinney
Currently signed players only.
Vandermeer, Giordanno and Hale will likely fill out the defensive positions if they get signed. Giordanno is rumoured to have an agreement in place already.
??????????? - Lombardi - ?????
Nystrom - Conroy - Moss
Prust - Primeau - Boyd
Van Der Gulik
Phaneuf -
Regehr - Sarich
Aucoin -
Kipprusoff
McElhinney
Currently signed players only.
Vandermeer, Giordanno and Hale will likely fill out the defensive positions if they get signed. Giordanno is rumoured to have an agreement in place already.
Monday, June 23, 2008
Not the Right Fender's Day!
It was not a good day for the front right side of my vehicle yesterday. It was not a good day for me, driving wise, either! Ack. What a bummer of a day, lol. But I guess that's what over-confidence does to you when you just get so used to doing something and then you don't pay as much attention as you should.
So... the first thing. I was driving eastbound on Memorial Dr. on my way to church when all of a sudden, out of nowhere... a bird flew in front of the car. Usually they are REALLY good at zipping by moving vehicles. But then I hear a 'thump' and I look into my rear view mirror and what do I see? A cloud of feathers dissipating in the air behind me...
Terrible feeling!! TERRIBLE! I ended up praying and saying sorry to God for killing a bird... I killed a bird. Sigh. But then I started thinking as I got closer to church, "I really, Really, REALLY hope there isn't a dead bird on my front fender..." Luckily, there was nothing. No bird. No blood. No feathers.
Second thing. I was taking David and Tanya DVBS supply shopping and I was perpendicular parking. Yes... PARKING! How... very embarrassing. But yet, it is safer than hitting a moving vehicle. But I made a last minute decision and adjustment for a parking spot and I ended up taking it faster than normal and I ended up clipping my front right fender on the tire rim of the next car over. ACK! My first car accident with actual body damage!! Luckily, everyone was alright, and I even ended up perfectly in the parking slot (strangely enough). But I felt terrible after that too, sigh. I waited for the guy and he was REALLY nice about it, so I'm happy about that. And the damage on his vehicle wasn't that bad either (so it shouldn't cost me too much) and he was willing to deal with out insurance either. Tanya and David were really good about it too so that really helped. Now to deal with my car's damage.
But it was just not my day. I mean, it was just not the right fender's day.
Sigh. Though I must say. I think I'm handling this a lot better than I thought I would. I made sure I continued taking David and Tanya supply shopping and had fun doing it instead of being all down-and-out or grumpy. I also forced myself to head over to Crystal's house for the BBQ after we finished shopping instead of going with the temptation to head home and mope. lol. So, yeah... now to make sure I don't take all the little things in life for granted and start paying attention to the little details (like I was teaching Tanya around that time in the car too! lol) and not become overconfident. No accidents in so many years and getting my advanced drivers exam done, my class 4 drivers exam done and being certified by NAPD (national academy for professional driving) made me too confident in my own driving skills. PAY ATTENTION TO DETAILS, STUPID!!
So... the first thing. I was driving eastbound on Memorial Dr. on my way to church when all of a sudden, out of nowhere... a bird flew in front of the car. Usually they are REALLY good at zipping by moving vehicles. But then I hear a 'thump' and I look into my rear view mirror and what do I see? A cloud of feathers dissipating in the air behind me...
Terrible feeling!! TERRIBLE! I ended up praying and saying sorry to God for killing a bird... I killed a bird. Sigh. But then I started thinking as I got closer to church, "I really, Really, REALLY hope there isn't a dead bird on my front fender..." Luckily, there was nothing. No bird. No blood. No feathers.
Second thing. I was taking David and Tanya DVBS supply shopping and I was perpendicular parking. Yes... PARKING! How... very embarrassing. But yet, it is safer than hitting a moving vehicle. But I made a last minute decision and adjustment for a parking spot and I ended up taking it faster than normal and I ended up clipping my front right fender on the tire rim of the next car over. ACK! My first car accident with actual body damage!! Luckily, everyone was alright, and I even ended up perfectly in the parking slot (strangely enough). But I felt terrible after that too, sigh. I waited for the guy and he was REALLY nice about it, so I'm happy about that. And the damage on his vehicle wasn't that bad either (so it shouldn't cost me too much) and he was willing to deal with out insurance either. Tanya and David were really good about it too so that really helped. Now to deal with my car's damage.
But it was just not my day. I mean, it was just not the right fender's day.
Sigh. Though I must say. I think I'm handling this a lot better than I thought I would. I made sure I continued taking David and Tanya supply shopping and had fun doing it instead of being all down-and-out or grumpy. I also forced myself to head over to Crystal's house for the BBQ after we finished shopping instead of going with the temptation to head home and mope. lol. So, yeah... now to make sure I don't take all the little things in life for granted and start paying attention to the little details (like I was teaching Tanya around that time in the car too! lol) and not become overconfident. No accidents in so many years and getting my advanced drivers exam done, my class 4 drivers exam done and being certified by NAPD (national academy for professional driving) made me too confident in my own driving skills. PAY ATTENTION TO DETAILS, STUPID!!
Saturday, May 31, 2008
A... B... C...
Alone: 23 and counting. Less than half-a-year to make it 24 straight years of being single. lol. Makes you crazy just thinking about all the possibilities that may or may not have happened. But then again... I'm the type of person that really wants that first one to be the only one. So, I guess I can't complain too much. Perhaps I just haven't met the 'One' yet. Or, on the flip side... maybe I'm not who I need to be for the girl that God has chosen for me... makes you wonder.
Bored: Man, I live such a boring life, lol. Nothing ever happens in my life (that I take notice of to consider exciting or new). Or perhaps I just haven't gone out and found it. Either way. I find that my life is really boring. Nothing to ever talk about in my life. "So, what's new with you?" is a question that I never have an answer for in my ultra-mundane life. Or is it that I just don't notice things as much as others? Makes you wonder.
Content: Strangely enough, even with the frequent bombardment of feelings of loneliness and boredom... I'd have to say that I'm actually content with my life. Naturally, there are many things in my life that I could improve on and have been trying to work on lately, but ultimately... I'm strangely content with where I'm at.
Now, was there even a point to this blog? I thought there might have been one when I started typing, lol. But clearly, there wasn't much of one. Oh well.
Bored: Man, I live such a boring life, lol. Nothing ever happens in my life (that I take notice of to consider exciting or new). Or perhaps I just haven't gone out and found it. Either way. I find that my life is really boring. Nothing to ever talk about in my life. "So, what's new with you?" is a question that I never have an answer for in my ultra-mundane life. Or is it that I just don't notice things as much as others? Makes you wonder.
Content: Strangely enough, even with the frequent bombardment of feelings of loneliness and boredom... I'd have to say that I'm actually content with my life. Naturally, there are many things in my life that I could improve on and have been trying to work on lately, but ultimately... I'm strangely content with where I'm at.
Now, was there even a point to this blog? I thought there might have been one when I started typing, lol. But clearly, there wasn't much of one. Oh well.
Friday, May 16, 2008
Spring Cleaning!!
Beautiful weather outside! Woke up relatively early (8am) for a no-work day and decided to go for a run. Actual run. Head outside and run. lol. It felt great. Did a bit of work-out as well on the fitness courses scattered around the Hamptons school. I'm sore now, but it felt great.
Also did something I haven't done for quite a while and haven't done consistently since I was in Junior High. Which was to sit and talk to God outside... in the midst of His creation. Hopefully this will re-awaken my spirit and get me physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually on the right path!
I think I've been stuck in a lull of... self-despair and self-pity since I got booted from University that second time. I think I've been sitting around just WAITING for something to happen. For something to fall into place. For a fresh beginning. And honestly... that's just plain stupid.
So... it's time to actually get my feet moving and pursue my dreams. To regain some kind of motivation. To have a reason for waking up in the morning (maybe that's why I can't sleep properly, cause I have no reason to live... more or less). Time to take that mask off... no matter how much it will hurt, or how hard it will be. It's time to grow up again. BJ always asked why I was so rude/obnoxious/sarcastic/etc... and I always told her that it keeps people distant. And maybe it's time to stop that. I can't keep holding on to my failures (perceived or actual) forever. This really struck hard when I was thinking about things this week and things that I never thought as a failure in my life... actually were. The one that I always list off as something that probably has held me down was my academics... but over this week... I've realized that relationships have also been holding me down cause deep-down inside I've viewed a lot of them as failures on my part.
Well, anyways... it's time to move forward. Hopefully, I can continue to do so. I've made a deal with myself that I will no longer touch my playstation on weekdays. I cleaned out my wardrobe and tossed quite a few things... also went shopping yesterday and started buying more things (experimenting - though not by much cause I really am a conservative, lol). And I'm cleaning up my room and the basement now as well. Clear the clutter I live in before I can clear the clutter in my mind/life.
No more sitting around waiting for a train to hit me before I get my life in order. Or maybe the train already hit, lol... either way. Time to clean house!
Also did something I haven't done for quite a while and haven't done consistently since I was in Junior High. Which was to sit and talk to God outside... in the midst of His creation. Hopefully this will re-awaken my spirit and get me physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually on the right path!
I think I've been stuck in a lull of... self-despair and self-pity since I got booted from University that second time. I think I've been sitting around just WAITING for something to happen. For something to fall into place. For a fresh beginning. And honestly... that's just plain stupid.
So... it's time to actually get my feet moving and pursue my dreams. To regain some kind of motivation. To have a reason for waking up in the morning (maybe that's why I can't sleep properly, cause I have no reason to live... more or less). Time to take that mask off... no matter how much it will hurt, or how hard it will be. It's time to grow up again. BJ always asked why I was so rude/obnoxious/sarcastic/etc... and I always told her that it keeps people distant. And maybe it's time to stop that. I can't keep holding on to my failures (perceived or actual) forever. This really struck hard when I was thinking about things this week and things that I never thought as a failure in my life... actually were. The one that I always list off as something that probably has held me down was my academics... but over this week... I've realized that relationships have also been holding me down cause deep-down inside I've viewed a lot of them as failures on my part.
Well, anyways... it's time to move forward. Hopefully, I can continue to do so. I've made a deal with myself that I will no longer touch my playstation on weekdays. I cleaned out my wardrobe and tossed quite a few things... also went shopping yesterday and started buying more things (experimenting - though not by much cause I really am a conservative, lol). And I'm cleaning up my room and the basement now as well. Clear the clutter I live in before I can clear the clutter in my mind/life.
No more sitting around waiting for a train to hit me before I get my life in order. Or maybe the train already hit, lol... either way. Time to clean house!
Sunday, May 04, 2008
Losing Money...
I'm spending a lot of money this month... it's strange. More and more just keep disappearing...
But, I did end up with new runners... and a new tennis racket as well. So far, it's pretty good. A lot lighter and I get more power out of it. Now, I need to work on my accuracy, lol. And... I'm starting to wish I had thought about this when I bought it... but... a white handle is not a smart idea... cause I sweat a lot... and I think the white... won't be so white soon, lol. And it will be just disgusting in the end. Oh well... maybe I can keep it clean... or maybe I'll purchase a pair of golf gloves or something and wear that when I play golf and tennis too!!
Ooh, which reminds me... golfing season is here!! Should find some time to go golfing too!!
Oh, and I bought 6 tickets for the Childrens Hospital home lotto. Win-Win situation there. If I win a house, sweet. I'll probably end up gifting it to my parents. And... just keep this one for myself, lol!! =P And if I don't win anything, then that's fine too, cause the donation goes into advancing technology for the Childrens Hospital! =P
But, I did end up with new runners... and a new tennis racket as well. So far, it's pretty good. A lot lighter and I get more power out of it. Now, I need to work on my accuracy, lol. And... I'm starting to wish I had thought about this when I bought it... but... a white handle is not a smart idea... cause I sweat a lot... and I think the white... won't be so white soon, lol. And it will be just disgusting in the end. Oh well... maybe I can keep it clean... or maybe I'll purchase a pair of golf gloves or something and wear that when I play golf and tennis too!!
Ooh, which reminds me... golfing season is here!! Should find some time to go golfing too!!
Oh, and I bought 6 tickets for the Childrens Hospital home lotto. Win-Win situation there. If I win a house, sweet. I'll probably end up gifting it to my parents. And... just keep this one for myself, lol!! =P And if I don't win anything, then that's fine too, cause the donation goes into advancing technology for the Childrens Hospital! =P
Monday, April 28, 2008
Bass It Up
So, about 2 weeks ago, I decided to pick up my bass guitar again after not playing it for over a year. Finally decided that after 2 years of owning it... maybe I should actually try to play it, lol. And now... my fingers hurt and are calloused again... BUT I did end up playing on Sunday for worship. And I think it went well. Nobody complained about anything, lol, so that's always a good sign. My hands were so sweaty the entire time, I think I was more nervous than I thought. Cause I don't recall my hands ever getting sweaty when I practice at home. lol. But overall, it was a great time. Now, I just need to get more practice in... get my rhythm going without having to mentally focus on it as much... this way I can actually worship more while playing. But even though I didn't sing... I thought it was actually a very deep worship session. More so then I've had for a while now. Just goes to show how it isn't all about singing... but so much more about just the attitude of worship.
Oh, and I need to learn how to play in more than just one octave, lol. That might help. =P
Oh, and I need to learn how to play in more than just one octave, lol. That might help. =P
Thursday, April 17, 2008
Fitness Time
Okay... so I've subscribed to Men's Health for 2 years, lol.
I've also purchased a 6kg medicine ball... and an exercise/training ball as well...
Been eating fruit like crazy and drinking more water.
Should buy some new runners soon as well.
Time to get healthy!!
Time to get stronger!!
I've also purchased a 6kg medicine ball... and an exercise/training ball as well...
Been eating fruit like crazy and drinking more water.
Should buy some new runners soon as well.
Time to get healthy!!
Time to get stronger!!
Monday, April 14, 2008
Belated Playoff Predictions!
Boy... blogs are almost dead... but then Pastor mentioned blogging during service, so here I am!! =P
West Finals:
Dallas Vs. Calgary
East Finals:
Montreal Vs. Pittsburgh
Stanley Cup Match-Up:
Montreal Vs. Calgary
Wouldn't that just be sweet? lol
Stanley Cup Winner:
Calgary
Conn Smythe Winner:
Iginla
West Finals:
Dallas Vs. Calgary
East Finals:
Montreal Vs. Pittsburgh
Stanley Cup Match-Up:
Montreal Vs. Calgary
Wouldn't that just be sweet? lol
Stanley Cup Winner:
Calgary
Conn Smythe Winner:
Iginla
Friday, January 18, 2008
Tired and Exhausted!!
What do you call someone who runs in front of a car?
- TIRED!
What do you call someone who runs behind a car?
- EXHAUSTED!
There's my punny jokes for the year! But I am so tired as of late... I can't even explain why! All I know is that I'm having a VERY hard time staying awake (yet I can't fall asleep either...) And I don't recall ever being this tired... EVER! Usually when I'm this tired... I pass out and feel refreshed the next day, but I still can't fall asleep or stay asleep still. And this is driving me crazy! I don't think I've been able to consistently have good night sleeps since... probably high school. I'm guessing stress is the reason why... but there are times when I don't feel stressed out at all and still can't sleep. Sometimes, I wonder if it's because of all the failing I experienced after high school and the feeling of being a failure is just hidden deep down?? Anyways... one can only hope that I start getting actual rest at night!
Cause I'll need it if I ever want to get a medic job, lol!
Though that has made me think too... could I... possibly get into paramedics... Graduate as a paramedic. Learn and gain all the GOOD study and work habits by doing so and get into Med School after?? I'd be a lot older then I ever imagined if I do become a doctor... but I've actually been thinking about that lately. Maybe it's because people at work have been saying that I should become a pediatrician... or just because I'm in the process of thinking about my future again... either way. Only God knows and only time will tell. I just need to get myself off my butt a bit more and start working for it.
Well... those are my thoughts for this week. And now for some HOCKEY!! Even though I feel like sleeping... hockey is always great!
- TIRED!
What do you call someone who runs behind a car?
- EXHAUSTED!
There's my punny jokes for the year! But I am so tired as of late... I can't even explain why! All I know is that I'm having a VERY hard time staying awake (yet I can't fall asleep either...) And I don't recall ever being this tired... EVER! Usually when I'm this tired... I pass out and feel refreshed the next day, but I still can't fall asleep or stay asleep still. And this is driving me crazy! I don't think I've been able to consistently have good night sleeps since... probably high school. I'm guessing stress is the reason why... but there are times when I don't feel stressed out at all and still can't sleep. Sometimes, I wonder if it's because of all the failing I experienced after high school and the feeling of being a failure is just hidden deep down?? Anyways... one can only hope that I start getting actual rest at night!
Cause I'll need it if I ever want to get a medic job, lol!
Though that has made me think too... could I... possibly get into paramedics... Graduate as a paramedic. Learn and gain all the GOOD study and work habits by doing so and get into Med School after?? I'd be a lot older then I ever imagined if I do become a doctor... but I've actually been thinking about that lately. Maybe it's because people at work have been saying that I should become a pediatrician... or just because I'm in the process of thinking about my future again... either way. Only God knows and only time will tell. I just need to get myself off my butt a bit more and start working for it.
Well... those are my thoughts for this week. And now for some HOCKEY!! Even though I feel like sleeping... hockey is always great!
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
Staying Alive!
Okay... time to keep the blogging world alive!!
Well, it's a new year... and everything feels crappy. Not the best way to start off a new year, lol. But that's just the way things are for me right now. Things just feel crappy. Like I told Kingston and Karen sometime this past week... I really have not adjusted well to this... so-called adult life! Why can't I be back in High School with no responsibilities? No worries? A simple day-to-day life... or perhaps it is just my memories of it that feels right. In reality... I probably hated High School at the time too, lol. Sigh. I need to learn to be content with what God has given me right here, right now...
Anyways... on Sunday... I was in... my so-called... loner mode, lol. But Kingstons party was quite refreshing actually and hopefully he had a great time! Again, Happy Birthday! =) But that morning during service I just felt so... dried out. I feel stagnant and it feels like I have been stagnant for quite some time now and it is just starting to hit me. And it feels crappy when God just feels so distant...
And with all the unknowns with my... education and occupation. This is driving me insane with stress. I'm still waiting for my provincial registration card for this year... but they are currently moving offices and are not opened till at least tomorrow and I can't get a hold of them! I'm so scared that I forgot to do something last year to maintain my registration and that is stressing me out. Then... just thinking about getting an EMT job (perhaps out of town) is worrying me cause of all the uncertainty. And will I apply for the Paramedic program next year? or should I work longer as an EMT to gain that confidence and knowledge before moving on? Sigh... the fear of failure is one chain that I have not broken through completely as of yet still.
But hey... I survived last year. And I got quite some nice memories out of it (along with some bad) but I'm going to try go start remembering the good more then the bad from now on. So, who knows? Maybe this year will turn out to be an awesome year!
Well, it's a new year... and everything feels crappy. Not the best way to start off a new year, lol. But that's just the way things are for me right now. Things just feel crappy. Like I told Kingston and Karen sometime this past week... I really have not adjusted well to this... so-called adult life! Why can't I be back in High School with no responsibilities? No worries? A simple day-to-day life... or perhaps it is just my memories of it that feels right. In reality... I probably hated High School at the time too, lol. Sigh. I need to learn to be content with what God has given me right here, right now...
Anyways... on Sunday... I was in... my so-called... loner mode, lol. But Kingstons party was quite refreshing actually and hopefully he had a great time! Again, Happy Birthday! =) But that morning during service I just felt so... dried out. I feel stagnant and it feels like I have been stagnant for quite some time now and it is just starting to hit me. And it feels crappy when God just feels so distant...
And with all the unknowns with my... education and occupation. This is driving me insane with stress. I'm still waiting for my provincial registration card for this year... but they are currently moving offices and are not opened till at least tomorrow and I can't get a hold of them! I'm so scared that I forgot to do something last year to maintain my registration and that is stressing me out. Then... just thinking about getting an EMT job (perhaps out of town) is worrying me cause of all the uncertainty. And will I apply for the Paramedic program next year? or should I work longer as an EMT to gain that confidence and knowledge before moving on? Sigh... the fear of failure is one chain that I have not broken through completely as of yet still.
But hey... I survived last year. And I got quite some nice memories out of it (along with some bad) but I'm going to try go start remembering the good more then the bad from now on. So, who knows? Maybe this year will turn out to be an awesome year!