So Sad

Well... I'm home now and it feels really nice. Had to have had the NICEST sleep in the past 6 months last night. Felt so nice to sleep in my big comfy bed, and felt so nice to sleep after being so sleep-deprived from finals. Started to unpack today... halfway done... then went out for dinner with Kingston, Jon Chu, Sam and Sarah... and then just hung-out at Sam and Sarah's place. Quite relaxing, very enjoyable. But it made me think... think about everybody I don't get to see and hang out with anymore at rez... I miss everybody there. It was so much fun... and I miss all the laughter and fun times... sigh... so sad... hopefully we keep in contact... even if we are all returning to our homes, spread through the entire world...

Oh, and I checked my marks today... got 3 of them back... 1 officially posted on beartracks and 2 unofficially on the psych website... B+ in Psyco 267 - Perception (kinda good, kinda disappointing, since it was my best class this semester, and a repeated course as well) B in Psyco 233 - Personality (which is about what I expected) C in Psyco 223 - Developmental (not what I expected, sigh... thought I could get at least a B-)... Psyco 281 - Learning and Behaviour... still unknown, but it was my worst one this semester so... sigh... so what does this all mean for me?? It means I am GOING (edited. thanks Andrew) to be requested to withdraw (once again) from the Faculty of Science due to poor academic standing... And since it will be my second such request... it will be a permanent removal from the Faculty... sigh...and because I did not get a straight 4.0 gpa this semester... I'm going to have to appeal for sure, ACK... so sad

If my appeal goes through and is accepted, then THANK GOD... I'll be back at UofA next year, and in 2 more years, I will finally graduate with a BSc... however, if I my appeal gets rejected, then... I am one lost and confused little boy. Paramedics? (can I handle the stress? can I handle the learn on your own style?) Electrician? (do I really want to?) Transfer to another U? (with my accademic record, can I even? will I be accepted?) Bible College? (am I called to? Christian Ed?) ARGH... so sad

Done, Done, Done and DONE

YES!! Praise God! I am DONE my exams. haha. I can finally get some decent sleep at night and to not ruin my eyes by staring at a textbook the entire day. And I can finally spend time outside... no more being stuck indoors when it's SOO beautiful outside. I love spring. Haha. Man, I'm tired... I got... 45 minutes of sleep last night... Finally couldn't stand it anymore, so I decided to take a nap at 6:15am... and set my alarm for 7:00am... I jumped out of bed thinking I had slept in and was late for my 9:00am exam, but just as I jumped out of bed, the alarm went off, haha, talk about perfect timing, I mean, I was standing up, but my eyes wern't even opened yet. :P

Anyways, all I can say is. THANK YOU GOD for helping me through all my exams, without You, I could NOT have finished my exams or have been even relatively prepared for them. Right now, I'm kinda scared that this might be false hope... or wishful thinking... but I'm pretty sure I did pretty good on all of them, cause I was not panicked or shocked and I was even able to answer written questions without ever going totally blank. AND I never stayed for the entire scheduled exam time. :P Which hopefully doesn't come back to bite me in the buttocks. But Lord, my exams are in Your very capable hands. Take me where You want me to be next year.

Okay, time to clean up, and start packing. It's home time.

Links gone crazy??

Strangely enough... Linda and Miltons Blog Links were not working for the past week... they kept sending me to the Blogger Homepage...
So I finally got tired of it and searched around a bit to figure out why it wasn't working... and I finally figured out that Lindas page name has changed. I guess she decided to add in a www. before her name, cause nobody else has a www.name.blogspot.com page. But yeah, anyways... Lindas page is now properly linked... but I can't find Miltons page, haha. Hmmm... maybe if I try a www. before his page... and... VOILA... okay, I have found his page now... so both links should be working now... strange... wonder why they both have www. now and the rest of us don't... anyways... as you can tell... I have nothing to write today... just been busy trying to study... wrote 3 of my 4 finals... I think they went alright... didn't get 100%, that's for sure. sigh. But, hopefully I did really well in them. But regardless... wonder what my GPA will be at the end of this year... wonder if I'll need to appeal... I probably do... sigh... wonder if my appeal will work?? Wonder where I'll be next year... UofA?? or someplace else?? Sigh... the unknowns... sigh...

Well... I'll be on vacation for most of May... be in Japan for a week... wonder if we'll get attacked there?? or if we'll be safe there, hehe... now with all this Japan vs. China thingy... stupid protestors... though I guess it's stupid for Japan to glaze over what actually happened during World War 2... but then again... I wonder why nobody complains that Russia has glazed over their actions during WW2 as well.

Hmmm... on another random note. The lady who 'found' a peice of a human finger in her Wendy's Chili has now been arrested. She has been arrested because she has a history of making law-suits against major corporations so this could still be a fraud... though Wendys is still offering a ? $100,000? reward for anybody who can help solve this case. Considering that they were unable to find anybody working in that Wendys or in their distrubuters who have lost a finger... could it be that this lady chopped somebodys finger off and placed it in her own chili so that she could file a law-suit against a major corporation like Wendys?? Well... regardless... I doubt I'll be ordering a side chili at Wendys for quite some time... sigh... which sucks, cause I loved their chili and used to always switch my side order fries for chili... but I don't know if I can eat chili there without thinking about finding something in there now... blah!

Hmmm... okay, on another random note. It's too bad that the Hitmen gave up a 3-1 series lead and lost to the Brandon Wheat Kings... it was a heroic effort I guess, considering the Wheaties were the top team in the east and one dominating force. However, luckily... at the removal of the Hitmen from the WHL playoffs... the AHL playoffs has now begun, haha, so I can still follow the Lockmonsters (Flames minor affiliation) through their playoff run. So far... series tied 1-1 against Hartford (Rangers minor affiliation).

Sigh, okay... one more random note. My candidate on the Apprentice is still in the game and is one of the final four. Craig is still alive and going strong. However, I must say this again... the candidates for this Apprentice SUCK compared to the last two seasons. The last 2 seasons always had strong candidates battling it out in the final 4 or 6 (excluding Jennifer M (season 2 finalist))... but honestly... I don't really like any of the final 4 candidates this season, and yes, that includes Craig. I think he's better than the rest... but he isn't the best. I thought Kelly was going to win last season because he was strong, he knew how to lead and he knew how to follow and he always worked as hard as he could. But Craig? He doesn't know how to communicate at ALL. Tana, kinda flakey, power hungry and arrogant... Kendra, very very selfish, emotional and not much of a leader... Alex, is plain useless, he hasn't done a THING in the past 5 weeks and whenever he did do something, he did an extremely poor job... So yeah... honestly... I feel bad for Troy (first season) who got fired because he was a high-school graduate only and did not have the education, or so Trump stated then. Man, if Troy was in on this season, he would have dominated the entire season. For those of you who don't know... this season... it was the Book-Smarts (those with a university degree) vs. the Street Smarts (those with only a high school diploma)... so Troy could have played on a level playing field in this season and he would have butched them all. :P

Oh...kay... time to sleep. Be back home in 3 days... Tuesday to be precise. Otherwise... study, study, study... exam... pack, pack, pack... say farewells... and home time.

Last Call

Last call, y'all.
Anybody who wants 'good' quality pictures from Easter Long Weekend (primarily Linda's Surprise Farewell Party) tell me now... cause I'm going to start resizing them so they don't take so much space on my computer, and so I don't have duplicates of pictures on my computer. To preview said pictures, click on My Photos under Links: Internal to the right. To order... e-mail me the titles of those that you wish to receive... Otherwise... good quality pics will be gone in... I don't know... about a week??

Sigh... okay, now back to studying... sure hope I do good on the final exams... I hate all these Unknowns about my future... but nothing I can do about that now... blah... God, my life is in Your very capable hands. Help me to stop trying to control my own destiny with all my worries... Help me to focus on today and what I actually need to do right now and help me to actually have the strength/will power to do them. So much inner turmoil... so easy to hide myself in games/socializing/sleep/fantasies... but so much pain when I focus on what I need to do and who I am... Why was High School so easy for me, only for me to suffer so much in University? What is it that I am supposed to learn from all this? Where am I supposed to go after all this? Who am I supposed to be? Who am I right now? Was I meant to overcome all these things... but in the end... only to come this far and to have failed horribly... ARGH!!

You give and You take away.
You give and You take away.
My heart will choose to stay.
Lord, Blessed Be Your Name.

Sigh... on a side note... completely off-topic... Go Hitmen. Playing Calgary Flames Hockey, practically repeating the Flames run last spring. Hope you guys make it all the way.
Crap... this blog took half-an-hour to write. Too much to think about... almost home time... less then 2 weeks before I'm back in Calgary. And it's strange... I'm torn... first time since I've moved up here. This floor... this family... will never be together again...

You've Been Flooded

Due to the recent flood at International House, one of my friends decided to use the idea as a prank. (Not a stupid prank where we'd cause damage, which whould then incite revenge... but a funny one) Though I've realized that you kinda have to have some sort of experience with living in rez to truly understand the nature of rez pranks. Only those who have lived in Rez seems to have understood the prank and thought it was a good one, but those who have not lived in Rez think it's stupid... But I thought I'd try to blog it anyways.

So, the plan was that we would fill up a whole lot of styrofone (sp?) cups with water and block up somebodys door, so that in essense, he became flooded in. We did this to only one person, because we figured that we would not have been able to realistically do this to an entire wing (14 people) as we originally had intended. Also, we had intended to target one of our friends who was moving back to Calgary today because she was done her school year, but decided that it would be a bit too mean to trap her in when she was trying to leave and her parents showed up.

So, 4 of us got up at 6:30 this morning and started our endeaver, and ended up using 900 cups to 'flood' the hallway in front of our targets room. It took us roughly an hour to complete the process. At first, we tried to be extremely quiet in pouring the water into all the cups, but we soon gave up on it, cause we knew he wouldn't hear it and wouldn't wake up. :P We had to catch one person who came out of their rooms to make sure they were quiet and didn't accidently wake up our target. We almost got into deep poodoo, when we heard some noise in one of the rooms close to where we were working. And going in to tell that person to not make any noise if she came out of her room, we found that the RA (Resident Assistant) was also in that room. The RA is basically the person in charge of our floor, who reports to Housing and Food services, who can write up incident reports... and basically evict us all... so we were all like OH CRAP! Especially since this RA has shown throughout the year to work precisely out of the book, and not really understand the personal side of rez life. However, to our shock and everybody else on the floor when they found out later, she actually joined in to help with the prank. lol! So, we made sure we got a picture of her helping... just so we can have evidence that she was apart of it as well, so we don't get evicted. :P

But yeah, when we finally finished, we started waking up people on the floor that we thought would enjoy watching our target come out and see himself flooded in. So we called him up and woke him up... however, he didn't rush out as we intended... or even come out immediately... which actually ruined the plan a bit, cause he started brushing his teeth and everything, so we had to rush him out by banging on his door. So he came out with his toothbrush in his teeth... and well... the reaction was really good. :P Cant say too much about it... he didn't jump or scream or anything, but it was good.

But yeah, that's my story... I may have ruined it by trying to explain it so well... and not to mention... I'm extremely tired...

Anonymous

You know what's cool? Google Maps are cool. Check them out. http://map.google.com/ Not only can you search for places (though they arn't quite done yet, I don't think...), and you can zoom in and out easily and scan through the entire map of North America just like that. Also, it's pretty well detailed maps... and they even have SATELLITE pictures... so you can get close enough with actual picture view to pick out the church and everything (not with good detail, mind you). However, again, they don't appear to be finished, and parts of the map does not have satellite feed. But still... overall, pretty cool. Kinda fun just to play around with it even if you arn't trying to find a specific location. :P Unfortunately, it isn't live feed on the satellite view... though that would be pretty cool... then you can check out the status of the traffic and everything. :)

And none of that has to do with the title. However... people who sign in my comments... and use anonymous... please, pretty please, write down who you are, cause I'm not good enough to tell who is writing what by what they write and how they write it. And if you write in anonymous... you can always just type in your name at the end of your comment... cough*grace*cough... or just get a blogger account. :P

Year End Party

Well, the Year End Party was tonight and it was really good. We had a good turnout from our floor like usual. :) All dressed up, so it looks nice and good. :) Nothing much to say about it, just had a formal party with food/floorpresentations/music/dancing/drinking over at a banquet hall at Lister Center. Kinda tired right now, spent an hour working on a yearbook collage after coming back from the party. Oh, and the picture above is of people on my floor (missing a few people, mainly the ones that never come out). Oh again... Because of the Flood and Fire on Wednesday night, and because of all the hassles for I-house residents following that night. We all got free entrance to the year end party (instead of having to pay $10 to get in).

Picasa, if you havn't heard about it, it's a FREE photo album by Google. It's very handy and easy to use. You can tag all your pictures so that its easy to find specific pictures later on. And then if you download the FREE HELLO program, it allows you to send digital pictures to other people with a HELLO account (which can come in really handy). It also allows you to post pictures on your blog in a nice simple way. :)

WHOA!! Totally forgot about Daylight Savings... sigh... so it IS actually 3:20am at the time of this posting... I am going to be soooo tired tomorrow for church.

Introvert

Hey, I am not debating the fact that I am an introvert. I know I am an introvert. But I'm not THAT MUCH of an introvert, where I stay by myself 24/7. That is all I'm saying. :) So Jacklyn, you can agree with Jen, and Jen, you can state that I said I was an introvert, and you'd both be correct. :)

Futher clarification:
On the introvert/extrovert scale... I would sit between introvert and the middle of the scale. :) So that means that... I have introvert tendencies, but not wholly.

And hey, our blogger crew continues to grow in numbers. :) Leenda has one as well. So I was thinking... maybe we should all change our comment settings so that we only allow blogger users to comment. That way, they are required to start up their own blogs if they want to comment. :) And then, they would feel obligated to blog on a regular basis as well. WUHAHAHAHA... But what do you guys think?? hehe