Falling Back

It's sad how I got an extra hour of sleep because of daylight savings time... and yet I was still so tired this morning. I wonder why... why can't I ever feel awake in the morning? sigh... anyways... on the topic of falling back... I've fallen back into my bad habits of my first year of University and it's going to take a LOT of work to get back on track. First on the list is to get my sleeping habit back on track again... and then it's work work work to get myself back on track in my classes. Going to be tough, but it needs to be done.

I actually forced myself up early on a saturday yesterday, and went out to study... however, I ended up coming back home by noon and taking a 2 hour nap before heading back out again. :) I got at least 4-5 hours of... err... kinda studying done. Found that it is REALLY hard to focus... hehe, especially since I borrowed Mercy Me "Undone" from Jen on friday... so yeah... listened to that cd at least 10 times yesterday. It's a good cd, really good, better than I thought it was. I think I shall go and buy it someday... probably when the new Jeremy Camp cd comes out as well.

Have to do this group research project on the history of whales and their evolution from terrestrial to aquatic... can't say it's going to be my favorite subject... but man... Zoology 224 really sucks. All of us in my group hates it, and basically everybody else... it's so hard and it's such useless information (unless we were to go into like paleontology or something...) but yeah... I wonder why this is a pre-requisite for a physiology degree?? I would have figured it would be anatomy classes, which I think I would enjoy a lot better than zoology. But yeah, should check up on that someday. maybe I'm in the wrong classes... which would suck, cause then I would be an additional year behind in uni again... sigh... at this rate I'm going to be a professional student for the rest of my life.

But yeah, been thinking about what occupation I would end up going into eventually again... and I don't know... sometimes I think I'm just afraid to accept or to actually search and pray for an answer... but random thoughts... I thought about being a teacher again... though it came out as a high school teacher of biology... I always figured I would do elementary... but maybe I'm better suited for High School?? if so... then I did waste a few years of school, cause I could have easily done the 5 year joint science/education program... but whatever... hmmm, paramedic came up again, and it seems to be the most prominent thought for a job... but I don't think I can handle that, too much blood and stress... too quick of a job... don't think I can think that quickly or handle situations with that great of a responsibility that quickly. I mean, can you imagine always being in control of somebody's life when u're on the job everyday? Take an extra second to think things over and it could mean life or death?? so I don't know... and ofcourse, the necessary strange and totally impossible job thought... being on a band... though, if that did come true. I'd have to learn how to sing and play guitar. haha... anyways... yeah, that's a definate no. :) Hmmm... kinda wrote a lot didn't I?? okay, that's all for now. :) Wonder if anybody even reads these?? or... one that's this long, haha... must be somebody who has a LOT of time and nothing else to do... :) so that person must be... YOU!!