God uses the broken.
He takes up the pieces and makes it into something greater then it was before.
But only if you let yourself be re-built. Only if you allow yourself to be placed into the refiners' fire. Only if you allow yourself to let go of the past.
Somehow, holding on to this pain, this brokenness, has become akin to an addiction. It's sad how this heartache and this pain can make me feel alive. It reminds me that I had a heart and a soul and had desires and dreams. Dreams that have come crashing down, desires that have eroded away, a soul that has lost it's way and a heart that is broken.
When... when can I finally let it go? When can I finally let myself go? When can I finally let my failures go? When can I finally let my expectations go? And just live. And just allow God to create in me a pure heart, to transform my dreams into something glorious, to conform my desires to His and to mold my soul in to His image...
Where did I go wrong?
Where do I go from here?
1 comment:
You didn't go wrong anywhere. I know that you have to come to terms with this truth first. Everyone makes mistakes and f-s up. It's all part of becoming better, stronger and smarter. Without mistakes we will never have the chance to correct them and to grow. You have to take action and not just let depression and a poor attitude take over. You have a strong support of friends, family and God. If you need anything you know where to find me --C
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